5.12.11 #Endbullying

Bullying is once again, back in the topic. It never actually ended actually.

As many of you may already know that what I can't stand most is seeing kids getting bullied. Those extreme kind of bullying that made that child almost wanted to commit suicide. Here's another one, this kid staying strong. I totally cried with him. It's really a waste that Jamey is not around anymore, I do think of him sometimes. To be honest, even though I didn't even talk to him before, I miss him, I miss him being on this earth, I miss seeing a kid being positive and staying strong even when they got bullied to the very top.

I get super emotional talking about bullying. As a light victim of bullying. I can feel how they felt. I totally understand how much it hurts. How painful it is. How heart stabbing it is. How hard it is. To keep thinking that people who bully the victims will soon realize how much we suffered inside. But no, they won't understand. They don't care. They are worse than judgmental people. They are so awful that I sometimes really pity them for being a bully.

The situation where you're being bullied, you can't fkn do anything to stop the bullies. They will just keep going and going and going like a fkn retard. Those people who once bullied me should really think about how much they've hurt me throughout those years and how idiotic they were. And how they made me a strong person because no one was there, I was all alone. I cry not because I'm scared, I cry because I feel bad for not being able to protect myself, I cry because I don't understand why I'm letting them hurt me.

So you fucking bullies, we cry doesn't mean we're scared of you. We're NEVER scared of you.

We didn't tell our parents about it not because those fucking idiots say that if we tell, we're just useless little babies. It's because we're nice people. We are fucking nice people. We respect them. We want them to wake up before it's too late. But sadly, they just won't. And if they're not going to help themselves in becoming a better person, then all I can say is, I wish them the worst.

All they want is our tears, or some worse, our lives. So we ain't giving them those.

Just want to tell all the victims of bullying that no matter how much hate you may get, no matter how many people judging you, I won't leave you alone. We won't leave you alone. xo

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5th of December: Update on Jonah. People saying he lied and shit. (link to the video)

Okay now, it's been 4 months. He DID get bullied, he DID suffer through those bullying. Being a happy kid now, he didn't lie. It's been 4 months, there will sure be some changes in his life. And people respected him and treated him better, so now (in this video) he is a happy kid. It IS him in the video but he didn't upload this video.

The tweet that guy is referring to.

(photo taken from the guy who tweeted the photo)

He made that video. Yes. It is him in the video. But the point is that he didn't lie about being bullied. He showed his scars in the latest video (that was not uploaded by him or was already deleted by him) to prove that the bullying was real. The purpose of the video is to let people know that he have now gain respect from people and stand somewhere in this earth, feeling welcome. Again, he didn't lie about being bullied so that's that. He DID NOT lie ABOUT being bullied.

3.12.11 Time difference

Guess everyone knows that there's time difference to countries that're further away from us. The nearest I can think of, Korea, which is one hour ahead of Singapore's time. It's confusing when different area of a country's time is different. Australia, Brisbane, which is 2 hours faster than us. And Australia, Melbourne, which is 3 hours faster than us. The cool thing is that it feels like they're like living in the future because they're time are faster than where we are! I have a friend from Canada, Ottawa, (which I don't think he still remember me) his timing is the easiest to remember. Just change our pm to am, or our am to pm. And how can I miss United States? Los Angeles is 16 hours before us. Being 10:58am (Saturday) now, it is only 6:58pm (Friday) there. I think this is SO COOL.

Me remembering these different timing almost always give me a headache but I think it is useful, at least to me. I don't know. I just love their time difference. It's good to know what time/what day is it in another country so you can make things easier by talking to them using their timezone and not make anyone in the conversation confuse. I prefer me going into their time, because I just like it this way. XD

I thought of this post because I was thinking that 10am used to be my favorite time of everyday. I always get bored at 11am because it's almost 12 noon and I hate the time after 12 noon. But favorite night time is 11pm, and have I mention this yet? I love the time after 12 midnight. I think 4am is the best of 12am-5am.

Speaking about 4am. I don't know if the 11:11 thing is real or not because I don't believe in 11:11. But I make wishes at 4:44. People say I'm weird because 4 means die in Chinese which I think is stupid for people to actually believe it. I mean, I believe that the forth floor of a building is cursed/bad lucky/just not good but why put pressure on the time itself. Whoa cool, I typed about 11:11 and now it's 11:11. Out of 10, 4 is my favorite number and maybe that's the cause of why sometimes shit will happen on me. Nah, hahaha those shit. But out of 20, my favorite number is 15. And out of 100, I don't have a favorite number because I don't think so far in life. You're really cool if you get what that means. I just have this special feeling for the number 15.

How about you? What's your favorite time? ^ ⋎ ^

Promise a proper post this thursday. Because I'll be out with my mom to take pictures for you guys! Unless fkn shit happens again.

But till then, keep smiling. xo

P/S: If you haven't watch the video I posted yesterday night, go check it out here (clickable) only if you're bored.

2.12.11 Apologies

I ended up staying at home the day after my last post because I woke up with a swollen right eye and I saw this disgusting jelly kind of thing inside and for a moment there I thought I need to go under knife to get that disgusting jelly looking thing out of my eyes because I can't seem to push it out. Went back to sleep and woke at around 5 in the morning, feeling hungry and awake, that means breakfast! After two rounds of breakfast, I went back to sleep thinking that I could wake 2 hours later and get my ass to Sentosa with my mom. But I woke up at night, still feeling tired, so we changed to next week.

Was feeling quite sick these days. Body feeling weak, flu, bodyache, and tiredness. But the point of this post is to send my apologies out to my lovely readers and whoever who visit this site, for not coming up with a post earlier after the day after my last post to inform everyone that I failed to go out and I'm feeling kinda sick. Still not feeling very well so I'm going to sleep straight after this post.

Today was horrible. I woke up at 7, am officially awake at 8. I spent 5 freaking hours to prepare to go out, and was late and I don't know why I'm so broke right now. Not my heart, I'm talking about my wallet. And then, feeling sleepy and tired, I went home before 9. I wore boots which are not even 4 inch tall and my legs are hurting, I didn't care and so it gave me cramps. While I was on the escalator. Going down to take the train home. Find a place to rest my legs and dragged my legs home slowly. Felt bad. Because instead of blaming the cheap boots that are already getting small, I blame my poor legs for being useless.

But anyways, before I went out, I recorded a short senseless video. XD



Sorry if there's any grammatical errors. I'm really tired.Goodnight!xoxo