24.12.14 The Big Gushcloud Expose?
First of all, I don't get the whole fight between Nuffnang and Gushcloud. Second of all, I am actually an actual nobody. Last of all, I cannot tolerate when people say shit about my friend when I know that particular friend very well.
I'm referring to this two posts: One from Xiaxue & another from Kife
Every blogger (especially well-known ones) will say things about how much they value the trust of their fans/supporters. If you've been here for awhile with me, you would know the kind of person I am so I need not put a disclaimer. If you're new, you can just read and set a conclusion yourself. No pressure. There shouldn't be.
If you're lazy to read the two posts I just linked you, I'll summarise them for you: both talking about masking ads. Xiaxue saying GC mask ads and Kife saying Xiaxue does it herself too because she accidentally forgotten to erase off the "Hello Wendy! Here's your EDITED caption for skinny mint 2nd IG:" below -
HONESTLY NOT A BIG DEAL.
People doesn't care about me but still I'm going to give my two cents about masking ads.
I'm referring to this two posts: One from Xiaxue & another from Kife
Every blogger (especially well-known ones) will say things about how much they value the trust of their fans/supporters. If you've been here for awhile with me, you would know the kind of person I am so I need not put a disclaimer. If you're new, you can just read and set a conclusion yourself. No pressure. There shouldn't be.
If you're lazy to read the two posts I just linked you, I'll summarise them for you: both talking about masking ads. Xiaxue saying GC mask ads and Kife saying Xiaxue does it herself too because she accidentally forgotten to erase off the "Hello Wendy! Here's your EDITED caption for skinny mint 2nd IG:" below -
HONESTLY NOT A BIG DEAL.
6.12.14 IDK
Yet another night filled with thoughts. I chose to blog about this than making a video about how I'm feeling because I try to keep the amount of negativity on my channel as low as I can. Especially when my channel is all about moving on to becoming a better person. I thought somebody could relate so.. hi.
My mood doesn't swing. It swings with people. I'm a deep feeler. I feel a lot. Feeling too much makes me think too much. Thinking too much makes me feel a lot more. Feeling so much makes me think a lot. You know how it goes.
I want to take a break from the internet and people around, go for a short getaway trip or something, make people miss me; but I'm not sure if anyone will. I want to tell people how important they are to me and would love to hear the same; but I can't tell if they are just saying what I want to hear or they actually mean it. I want people to love or miss me more than I do; but I don't know if they even love or miss me. I want to mean something in someone's life hearing about how special I am to them, so special that I don't even know; but do they even like me?
I prioritise people. Obviously I care about how I feel and such because I want to feel good but I tend to get too attached/care too much. I feel like.. when they say it's okay it actually means yes, I hope you feel better soon because you're my friend and I want to see you happy but then again, I hope you feel better so that you can shut up about that.
I'm insecure af. No I'm not. I don't even know now. How about you tell me?
Black Veil Brides and ice cream are the best help so if I'm not replying your text without a good reason, I could be crying but I'll be fine in no time. Not crazy, not depressed, just overwhelmed. Taking a breather by myself, that's the way I heal. I don't like to throw my emotional f*ck-pie on people who cares because I need them to save that concern for when I'm at my lowest. In case people I know personally reads this, you caring means the whole damn world to me.
18.11.14 Look,
With a very frustrated helpless heavy lethargic heart, I am writing this post.
Looking at myself now, I laugh. It almost feel like I lost myself again. Don't get me wrong, I love myself one hundred percent, it's nothing about that. I've been getting much more panic attacks recently, so much so that I'm beginning to suspect myself for having split personalities. I have the normal me knowing what's right and loving life, then there's the sad me thinking that whatever happening is the end of what I can take, and finally there's the angry me thinking all about how I can't wait to see the person who did me wrong fall to the damn ground.
Looking at myself now, I laugh. It almost feel like I lost myself again. Don't get me wrong, I love myself one hundred percent, it's nothing about that. I've been getting much more panic attacks recently, so much so that I'm beginning to suspect myself for having split personalities. I have the normal me knowing what's right and loving life, then there's the sad me thinking that whatever happening is the end of what I can take, and finally there's the angry me thinking all about how I can't wait to see the person who did me wrong fall to the damn ground.
28.10.14 My First Tattoo
SO DAMN EXCITING.
I've waited my whole life for this moment. Okay maybe a few years because then I'm sure of what I wanted on my body permanently. It's not at all a big tattoo obviously but it has a very close to heart meaning behind it.
27.10.14 Being On-set For The First Time
I'm always talking to the camera but it's videos that I planned out and edit myself. Otherwise, it's just an appearance on others' channel which well, is mainly Kife's because my circle of friendship is very limited. This is quite embarrassing but I dreamt of becoming an actress but I drop that thought when I accepted that I don't have the looks or skills so nah.
I was given an opportunity to be a part of something I've been wanting to try out. I would always chicken out casting auditions for a TV series because I'm too scared. I even once scheduled an interview only to cancel it 5 minutes later. I was hesitant to whether if I should take this chance or let it slip and hope for another in the future. Since 2014 has been good to me so I decided to be good to myself before the year ends.
I took the chance. Hence, this blog post after spending 10 hours together — filming.
"If not now then when?"
All photos are taken using iPhone 6 camera. You've been warned, the front camera doesn't get along with darkness.
I was given an opportunity to be a part of something I've been wanting to try out. I would always chicken out casting auditions for a TV series because I'm too scared. I even once scheduled an interview only to cancel it 5 minutes later. I was hesitant to whether if I should take this chance or let it slip and hope for another in the future. Since 2014 has been good to me so I decided to be good to myself before the year ends.
I took the chance. Hence, this blog post after spending 10 hours together — filming.
23.10.14 Balance
21.10.14 Meeting Black Veil Brides
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21.8.14 Makeup Collection
This video was requested a bit since the day I started doing beauty videos. I'm aware that room tour is the one getting requested a lot but I have some plans up before I film a room tour. Also because my room is always in a mess so that can be a reason for me to clean or mess it up even more. Whooops
10.8.14 Launching of ModestDevil
I did not give anything away but I've been meaning to set up an online store again. Over the years on the internet, I've tried to manage what they call back in the day a blogshop and it just wasn't my thing. I'm somebody who wants a bit of everything thinking "wow I'll make a lot of money if I carry everything anyone would want!" and yup, you guessed it, wrong move. I failed 4 times with the exact same mistake. I am the standing prove that sometimes you just can't have everything in one place.
28.7.14 Michael Kors Unbox
Never in my life have I ever own an actual designer bag that costs more than 500. I think the most expensive designer bag I own is well over 300 from Juicy Couture and the rest are under 300. Although I should have known that I could have save up all to get a Chanel Classic (which is around the 6-7k range, freakin' crazy Singapore), something I've always wanted but I just couldn't resist the temptation of beautiful bags from other brands that I can get faster. Sounds like I need to improve my patience.
25.6.14 Photobooth #6
Oh yeah. The first picture. I haven't blog about seeing Black Veil Brides and I totally should because I mean how can I not right. Black Veil Brides has been my favourite band and… I'll just talk about them when I blog about them haha. I don't know if anybody will like these photobooth posts but I like to come back once in awhile to see how much I've changed in just a few pictures and would like to share the changes with everyone. So, that's this post done. See you in the next one!
22.6.14 Layout
A change in layout, finally, a good one. I've been eyeing this for quite some time but because it costs money, I hesitated a little but I think it's safe to announce that this skin is now mine! Before I continue, I have Xhyrius to thank because he was the one paid for this skin. I hope it's not confusing for you guys because you, yeah you reading right now, plays a part in why I'm still blogging.
When was the last time I spend time sitting in front of my computer to type out a content worth reading? Even though now it's a week in summer break, I don't feel inspired nor motivated to do anything at all. Those feelings when you really want to do something but you just couldn't feel the push to actually do it is very frustrating. I believe this change will be a good start to getting back on my feet!
When was the last time I spend time sitting in front of my computer to type out a content worth reading? Even though now it's a week in summer break, I don't feel inspired nor motivated to do anything at all. Those feelings when you really want to do something but you just couldn't feel the push to actually do it is very frustrating. I believe this change will be a good start to getting back on my feet!
11.5.14 Top 5 MAC Lipsticks
MAC Cosmetics's packaging is very classy but I don't really get anything from there and the only things I ever get or keep on going back for more is their lipsticks. They come in different finishes so it's easy to choose out which will suit you best and there's quite a big range of colors which is always a good point when it comes to lipsticks!
3.4.14 CNOS 3 - Challenge 2
We have 5 challenges in total including 3 main ones. Second challenge is about food, which will be judged by Maureen, known as MissTamChiak (which means Miss Greed-Over-Food for those who are not familiar with this language *winkwink) who's very nice. I'm not saying this so I can score better! She made the effort to go around and have a short chat with some teams and mine was one of the lucky few so we managed to snap a group photo with her. Need I say how honored we felt?!
5.3.14 My Entry For Cineleisure's Next Online Sensation 3.0
I've never been a social
I saw CNOS 3 floating around but I was busy preparing for exams and I finally had some time to spare to write my entry! (and now I just need to find time for the vlog)
Since you're here, I'm not going to ramble about myself and not talk about Cineleisure so allow me to introduce you to some of the shops that I like to visit when I head down to Cineleisure.
First shop. You probably guessed it if you are here for quite sometime but it's okay if you're new because I'll leave a link to a short introduction of myself at the end of this blog post! It will be..
Second one will be male and female of all ages friendly because it's something that we all would love to experience every once in awhile. Yes. Cinema, or you call it movie theatre.
(via google; sorry I don't have a picture of it)
I've been there a lot of times and I promise you, it's a nice place to be. That's all I can really say about a movie theatre because this sort of thing, you gotta go there to see if it's better than others.
That's 2 places I'd recommend and now to the introduction vlog that I finally and why I decided to join CNOS3 although I kinda explained in the beginning of the post. hehe THANK YOU FOR READING x
#CNOS 2014 here I come! (if I got shortlisted that is)
23.2.14 February Update
Where do I start? I haven't write a blog post for about a month, that's insane. Thought it would be a good idea to jump back to the blogging bandwagon with an update post and reasons (not excuses) for my absentee.
I've fallen sick for a week about 2 weeks ago then I got a stye which is on its way to recovery and an ulcer that feels like blister in the mouth, just at the corner of my bottom inner lip. School is hectic. It starts to get crazy before I got ill then it got crazier after I feel better because why? It's almost the end (just 1 month away omg) of my first year of accounting course! Super excited because I can't wait to get it over and done with, by 'it' I mean the life in ITE so I'm not going to complain about the crazy amount of work waiting to be done. It's going to be worse after I leave this college but that's life so I'm ready.
I have an overdue bellabox post that I've yet to even take pictures of because I've been busy and been lazing off. I need to get back on track because I'm only motivated when I get things done and if I don't, I feel like crap. You can imagine how I feel when I'm not feeling well, literally like dying - like why live when you're not doing anything with your life? Something that haunts my mind every time my immune system die on me.
I've fallen sick for a week about 2 weeks ago then I got a stye which is on its way to recovery and an ulcer that feels like blister in the mouth, just at the corner of my bottom inner lip. School is hectic. It starts to get crazy before I got ill then it got crazier after I feel better because why? It's almost the end (just 1 month away omg) of my first year of accounting course! Super excited because I can't wait to get it over and done with, by 'it' I mean the life in ITE so I'm not going to complain about the crazy amount of work waiting to be done. It's going to be worse after I leave this college but that's life so I'm ready.
I have an overdue bellabox post that I've yet to even take pictures of because I've been busy and been lazing off. I need to get back on track because I'm only motivated when I get things done and if I don't, I feel like crap. You can imagine how I feel when I'm not feeling well, literally like dying - like why live when you're not doing anything with your life? Something that haunts my mind every time my immune system die on me.
