30.12.11 2012

RESOLUTIONS

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I'm going to do new year resolutions until the day I stop blogging and at the end of each year, I'll go back to the "new year resolutions" post and see what I accomplished then continue with a new year resolutions post for the next coming year. ^-^ If that makes sense. Since I don't have an actual post for my 2011 new year resolutions so this is going to be my first new year resolutions post. K I'm repeating let's start.

1) Hurry my way to polytechnic.

- All my friends are from poly, my blog readers, my fans, (I don't know about my video viewers) are from either express or are already waiting for their O's results (let's not talk about those who doesn't want to study because I want to study but still...) so because of that, I feel that I'm very far from them, like their already half way up the mountain but I'm still down there JUST preparing to catch up with them.

2) More people to know about me, that I exist and am helping the world - Popularity (the good way).

- It's not important but whether if I phrased it right or wrong, at least I know there's people who appreciates what I'm doing. About those hate, think it's time to stop huh losers? I've been standing here for these god damn years, letting you to scold whatever the fuck you want, why you still mad? ⁻\_(°▿°)_/⁻ If you're not happy then just don't look at my face or just scold literally behind your fragile screen and not type it out for me to see because I'm afraid that your cheap computer might not be able to handle my attractive face and yourself can't handle my sarcasm. ;)

3) Help more people.

- Inspire them, encourage them, help save more lives.

4) Start saving money!

- Planning to go overseas but plans kept failing not just because of not having family's approval but also, no money. I don't even have enough money to buy myself things. Guess I really need a job. :/

5) Keep my room tidy.

- I'm already having a hard time to tidy up 1/4 of my room even when it's 0.1/100 small compared to others. I should be cleaning but I'm sitting here writing this post! So I'm going to stop here and start cleaning again.

6) STAY FRIENDS WITH FRIENDS I HAVE NOW. HOW CAN I FORGET THIS. WTF
- My 2 main friends (other than my dear girl who already have a boyfriend) -- Jouri & Kife.

P/S: Going live tomorrow around 9:30pm! Check my twitter for updates. c:

LAST FRIDAY OF 2011. END WITH WITH REBECCA BLACK'S FRIDAY!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfVsfOSbJY0

Keep that smile there like her!
ENDING 2011 SINGLE-LY PROUD. ^-^

No shame. 

Photo taken while filming my accent video -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y90iSVxvpV0

28.12.11 Weak

I hate to tweet miserable tweets like as if my life is so sad. So I decided to blog it all out so I'll feel better tomorrow. My mood can't go down, because once it does, all the bad things will come towards me, and I have to take them all by myself.

Because I hate to explain. I don't want to let people know why I'm not happy.

Sometimes I'm really offended by the jokes my friends joked about. But I know they're joking so I can't say anything because it was meant to be JUST a joke. I don't want to tell them because I don't want them to feel that I'm too sensitive, I don't want to tell them because I don't want them to feel sorry about it, I don't want to tell them because I KNOW they didn't mean to say it to offend me.

Guys or girlfriends. They joke/ask about my teeth, I know it's not meant to be offensive so I just laugh it off and answer their questions, but I think they need to know that there's some knives behind those words. Also because I've said all they need to know about my teeth so many times. It somehow became a horror to even talk about it again. They don't understand how it feels to have crooked teeth. They don't understand how much people with crooked teeth suffered in the past. They don't know how much courage we need to build up bit by bit all by OURSELVES in order to survive with such teeth. Today, when I was brushing my teeth, it aches a little, it's not toothache kinda ache, it just aches. Don't say I'm crazy but I'm thinking to my teeth "don't worry, no matter how much people hate you, insult you, joke about you, or how much judgments I get, I won't move you and will still love you". And it magically stops aching, and till now it still didn't ache.

Just when I woke up today, I receive a fucked up (not sad but fucked up) news from my mom. Only thing I can say is that I hope my grandad will stay strong for this 2 weeks, I know he will, he's strong enough to handle tortures shits.

I'm fine, I will be by tomorrow.

People who found out about me not long ago, I'm sorry for being so negative. 

It only happens once in a blue moon!

Keep smiling. xo

25.12.11 MERRY CHRISTMAS!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

I'm sure everyone already knows that Christmas is my favorite time of the year in my previous post. So I'm here to wish everyone a SUPER MERRY CHRISTMAS. I've been saying "MERRY CHRISTMAS" for countless times! That shows how excited I am about Christmas. XD

He's Kife.

Not that I don't want to post ALL the pictures, it's that my eyes are pathetically small today and I don't know why, and my awkward smile. Omg iphone pictures are still better although the quality...


Gosh I really dk what's wrong with my face today. -_______-But other than that, for once, my Christmas was finallyyyyyyyy well spent. ^-^
Damn tired. Goodnight. xo
KK I'M BACK BECAUSE KIFE SAY:@MichelleAKJ WHY OUT OF SO MANY NICE PHOTOS YOU JUST UPLOAD THAT 1 WITH THE UGLIEST ME :<

So...

K NO MORE. MY GOD MY AWKWARD FACE. FK HIS EYES. LOL

24.12.11 Sevenly

I blogged about them near the starting of this month and I received it yesterday!

Here's some webcam pictures:

You didn't just helped someone but you're also keeping yourself warm. This hoodie is damn comfy! And it really keeps me warm because it's wool inside. They'll have different designs every week, so once you missed it, it's gone forever. So go help save a life now! http://sevenly.org

Going live with Jouri later at 10pm, MAYBE Kife will be coming too! I'll post the link on twitter later.

And... MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE! It's my favorite time of the year. ^-^

Didn't get a christmas hat so I'm using my DIY christmas treehat for Christmas instead.

K KEEP SMILING BYE! HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS TOMORROW!!! 

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23.12.11 BRB

Hope you like my new blog header/banner.

I'll be back.

XOXO

19.12.11 ITE

I'm NOT proud.

Gotten my results yesterday. I don't know how many times I'm saying this but I really really really anyhow dumped words in when I'm doing the papers. Making it sound more simple - my answers to those questions have no link at all. So I thought I'm going to fail so badly - like I say on twitter, I'm going back to see how badly I've done, and not whether if I passed. Because I failed throughout the whole secondary 4 examinations we have, and because of me, rambling how dumb my answers are after each paper, everyone already prepared to see me fail. Also before I continue, I want to thank those people who wished me luck and making me have some hope that I will pass at least one subject and making me a little nervous before getting the results.

Both of my form teachers smiled happily and tell me I'm going to ITE and I'm like "expected but.. FUCK".

I planned to go to higher nitec but I can't make it there with my current results. I only fail one sub so I guess it's okay. I'm SUPER not proud of my results and where I'm going but I'm happy with everything because I thought I did worse, and since it already happen. Also, I can choose the course I want.

My social studies teacher walk towards me and the others I'm with, he asked us, "so how?" we said "ITE..." then he tried to make us feel better because I once told him that I want to go back for secondary 5 even though, of course, I plan retake N's before I plan to go higher nitec so that's why I didn't study a shit for this year's N's.

My ex-math teacher walk towards me and gave me THAT look and I said "What's with that look!? *sigh* ITE..." so he flip to see my results and he's like *nod head* at least math passed and I got so hyper and I'm like "Ya!!!! I was expecting to fail all!" and my social studies teacher was like "but combine humanities fail right?!" but I'm like "NO! XD ^^V :D ^-^ Of course I passed combine humans. But I honestly don't know how I passed it" because I told everyone that my 2 essay questions - 16 paragraphs in total - I only wrote 2 paragraphs with repeated stuffs because the few topics for essay I read through didn't came out. As for geog, everyone knows that I can't rely on that; I left many blanks because that 4 years of studying... I talk, rest or just blindly copying the notes in class, NOTHING went in my head, so I used common sense to fight through my geog N's. What's worse, I copied almost 90% of the notes given in class but I don't remember seeing a question related to the notes I copied.

So YES, I'm an ITE (soon-to-be) student. I'll work my way up slowly...

Not proud, but I'm happy.

Don't worry, I will never get influenced by those bad kids, I won't turn bad. I'll still be the same me, the me I am now. ^-^

Anyone miss seeing my face in my posts? XD
Oh and I've change back to using formspring because ask.fm is being dumb. So from now on: http://formspring.me/MAKJXO

18.12.11 Dreams

Have you ever think why you dreamt of something you dreamt?

I dreamt of teeth dropping, and the pain of it shaking is... not cool. At first I thought it's like a sign for me to prepare myself from more decay teeth or something. But then once I went for a wisdom super decay tooth surgery, I still got that dream. I went to do some research about it and finally know what it means. Dreaming of teeth falling/dropping represent insecurity. Such dreams often occur at a time of transition between one phase of another in life. This kind of dreams also represent worries (about future, about growing up) because when we're young, we lost our milk teeth and as those happen, things around us are changing.

I dreamt of ghosts quite a few times. I always wake up scaring myself. Didn't dare to do research about what it represent till today! It represents those aspects of ourselves that we fear. Because us being scared of them makes them frightening. It can also represent the dark forces within ourselves that we have not accepted. It's not a bad thing to dream about them actually, although they may look scary but in some cases about this dream, the spirit people gave evidence (by appearing in your dreams) that proved them to be the real spirits of people from the next world. And usually only spirits that care for you can communicate in this way.

Not all scary dreams are bad, it's just a beautiful nightmare.

Such as:
Dreaming about death - it represent the ending of one phase so that a new one can begin.

Just focusing on 2 dreams because I'm going to sleep and maybe I'll blog tomorrow! No promises tho. Keep smiling, bye! xo

Naughty Singaporeans.

You all wanted this.

Before anyone talk about me being biased or whatever the hell, let me get this straight, I only help those who are right. After that video I've made about FHS, I guess majority of that minority of judgmental Singaporeans are on the net. Why you mad though? I was defending YOUR country. I did this shit to get myself judged for who? For Singaporeans, for Asians. I did that damn video for Singaporeans. Just because you're a Singaporean and I'm helping to defend all Singaporeans/Asians, doesn't mean you have the rights to judge me. And that doesn't mean that I'll let you say whatever negative things you want to say about me.

Okay let me just pick up comments and reply them.

Wow! Its a wonder that our future Generation are so free nowadays. Where have all the education gone to? MOE are u watching this?!

ZaiAlvin 1 hour ago

- You as a Singaporean, I saw your name on some video responses to FadedHolySoldier. Do you even understand why Singaporeans are making these video responses? Education? If the education is getting nowhere, they won't be Singaporeans making videos to DEFEND and HELP Asians. Wow, now you're bringing MOE in, well then, please get the video to MOE. I hope he watched that video and other FadedHolySoldier's video responses, read the comments and then realize how many judgmental Singaporeans are there now. Oh wait, aren't you more free to say that YOUR future generation have nothing better to do? GOSH.

I feel so ashamed cos more and more Singaporeans are making videos of themselves speaking such horrible english. You can't blame people from other countries judging us if we continue doing shit like this. WE SPEAK BETTER THAN THIS. WE ARE BETTER THAN THIS.

Coletterfied 4 hours ago

- Horrible English? Are you serious? Wait a second. I didn't blame people from other countries judging us. So you're saying that WE (you and some others) speak better than THIS (my video), then why don't you do a video response? Are you afraid of getting such comments from judgmental Singaporeans like yourself?

@FadedHolySoldier I feel bad for you, so many butthurt people getting mad over a video.

Cheeseburgercoach911 9 hours ago

- Now I feel bad for him too because I don't understand why that majority of that minority of Singaporeans just don't get it.

POR BOR!!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWW

tippinghand 12 hours ago

- :O Come again please?

You need dental work and a face reduction.

piggyboompow 35 minutes ago

- You guys don't get it do you? It's MY problem whether if I want to do it or not, now shut the fuck up. Thanks.

You can't choose your nationality, but you can choose your country. If you're not happy here, find a way to get out of where you are. Simple as that. Stop judging. But I find this super funny, my English is bad? I bet you haven't seen worse.

P/S: I really appreciate most of the Singaporeans who commented nice things on my video. But there are just some weird Singaporeans who choose to go against their own nationality, MAKING NO SENSE AT ALL.

Sorry judgmental Singaporeans, I hope you realize that I'm an inspiration and not a disgrace.

FadedHolySoldier

Replying to those YouTube comments ONE BY ONE won't help so I'm going to type everything in reply here.

Before Singaporeans turn and say that I'm biased to FadedHolySoldier just because he said nice thing to me, I want to say that I only help who's right, I know how to observe. I'm not dumb.

First, FadedHolySoldier removed the part 3 of him talking about the sense of humor shit, and he got that part 2 back up on his channel. I wanna thank him for seeking Singaporeans' advice (guess it's mainly Dee Kosh's advice) of removing that video because it can get to our government and things will not just be among the nationalist problem we have here. Also thank him for putting up that part 2 back up, because this shows that he knows he's at fault for calling Singaporeans racist and stuffs, and now he's taking responsibility about it. Because I believe we all don't wish to see this whole incident getting to Singapore's government and things just will get so much worse.

To those Singaporeans who judged me for STANDING UP for YOUR country, worse is those who judged my looks (when it has got nothing to do with the whole fucking point), I can't do anything about you, true, but you know, judging me won't bring you far in life. For your own good, shut the hate and start loving/caring. I don't even know why that minority of judgmental Singaporeans have the access to the internet. And of course, me staying in Singapore for so long, I know how judgmental Singaporeans can be, so I wouldn't be like STEVEN LIM saying that Singapore have 0% of racist people. That's obviously not true. We do have, but there's some who's not racist/judgmental. It's just that all those we met are stupidly those bad ones, most of them, if you really know Singapore, I'm sure you'll agree with that no matter what nationality you are.

Never call me a pai kia, I said before that those you are referring to are fucking LOSERS. Those cool gangsters who see loyalty as their first priority are the older generations so obviously you're referring me to those teenage losers.

I believe that FadedHolySoldier is already sure of what he did wrong, so now he wants to be nice hoping that he can cover up the fault (before making the apology video. P/S: He removed the "sort of" from the video that he say he will apologize so I guess he's going to apologize sincerely) but apparently Singaporeans are still angry about it. I know, having "outsiders" talking about Singapore is stupid because they don't know how is it like here. But Singaporeans really need to calm down and think, if you did something wrong, people didn't give you a chance, how would you feel? Think about it. 

Give him a chance, let him say sorry first.

Him talking bad about Asians doesn't mean Asians have to fight back by talking bad about Americans. I may sound biased to them but I swear, Americans are freaking nice people. It's not like I don't mix with Americans. I know a wee bit about their country after having friends from America. Of course, there's always a minority of people who're not cool, I've met some of them too, those really rude Americans. But just because you see what you saw, don't pin the whole nationality down. It's NOT fair.

Now to those Singaporeans who think that I'm stupid, I'm born in the year 1995, I know everything about those Singapore teenage gangsters because of my past with them. I don't wanna talk about my past but I just want to let you, Singaporeans, know that I'M NOT A FEMALE GANGSTER. Ah beng was never once classified as wannabe gangsters, they ARE gangsters. What are you talking about?!

I don't really get this but there's people saying I used Singlish and that I should brush up my English before posting up a video? HI, about that, I believe my English is very much understandable.

Now the comments there are getting so confusing so I don't know how to continue but, GIVE FADEDHOLYSOLDIER A CHANCE.

P/S: THE FACT THAT FADEDHOLYSOLDIER POSTED THE VIDEOS (AND NOW WANTING TO APOLOGIZE) AND THERE REALLY ARE RACIST AND JUDGMENTAL SINGAPOREANS CAN NOT BE CHANGED. SO STOP ALL THOSE FUCKING HATE. I'M TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE OF ALL NATIONALITY, OKAY.

Please. Make this end. If anyone want to judge, wait until we watch his apology video. 

And please FadedHolySoldier, before you fade, make that apology video a sincere one. God bless you.

Also, I want to thank your (FadedHolySoldier) nice comments, and I'm SO thankful for those Singaporeans who understand the meaning behind that video. Thank you so so so much. All that really means a lot. xo

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Before I end this post, I find this super dumb and funny.

He actually send me that dumb video when I already made a post about it. So now people, don't get mad at this white shirt guy, him private messaging me on YouTube already shows why he made this video. And stop calling him fat, that's judging, judging is wrong.

For those people asking which school I'm from, I won't say exactly where is it but it's on the green line.

Okay keep loving and smiling! Bye for now. X

17.12.11 Here I am, again.

This guy here is more daring than FadedHolySoldier. Because he saw how "successful" FHS is now, so he (that dude) tried to use his (FHS) method of being nationalist, but he chose to do it the extreme way, which was a very fucking stupid dumb choice.

Because FHS said tanning's tan instead of the actual surname of tan, he wanted to follow his way of saying surnames. I totally understand why FHS pronounced it wrong at first.

Example: Americans pronounce can't as can't instead of how people in the UK pronounce can't and cun't.
Meaning: Most people in US read words by reading the whole word and not the alphabet. (which is cool)
But for Asians' surnames, we pronounce it as how we pronounce alphabets instead of whole word itself.

-Done with the surname problem-

He mentioned the part where Asian men are naïve when it comes to dating Asian women. They are NOT at all. Most straight males hurt females' feelings but of course, there's some who're really not the same as other males. I mean, I know that there's some fucked up Singapore females who toy men's feeling, but that's like only 1%. And then he talked about women, most of us are fucking loyal people. So I'm guessing that he's one of those "Asian" who kisses Asian women's ass that's why he's going into this god damn 1% out of that whole of 100%?

-Done with relationship shit-

Laws. Dude, are you serious? You're talking about our laws? First law he talked about was drugs. People who take drugs in America is not as scary as people who take drugs in Singapore. Because the consequences behind taking drugs in Singapore is so big that people who take drugs here think it is so freaking cool to do it, and it is so not good for health so Singapore have to try to do things to stop it, so there explains the crazy law about drugs. Bungee jumps are not allowed because it's so damn dangerous and Singaporeans are super tiny compared to Westerners so that makes it more dangerous. Chewing gums are not allowed because most Singaporeans spit their gums on the floor instead of spitting it in the bin, although I don't really like that law but we must respect the reason why they set it. I have no comments about the homosexual law because I support LGBTQ so damn much that I find that law useless, but maybe they set this law because something happened before most Singaporeans hate on LGBTQ, but they sure have their reasons why they set that useless law so, no comments. I honestly didn't know that oral sex is illegal and I don't believe that it is, unless you're underage, I think, and don't care. About cigarettes, we have them everywhere and because drug dealers have all sorts of methods to get their drugs to the destination so they insert the drug inside the cigarettes or something like that, and there's fake brands of cigarettes that are cheap and mainly it's to sell to underage smokers, maybe that's why.

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About FadedHolySoldier, he replied to my video response.

MAKJBVB @MichelleAKJ

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I am really, very shock that FadedHolySoldier didn't like, scold me for my video response and stuffs. He actually is nice and polite, to me.

Yup, instead of repeating, I copied and paste what I said in twitter. He left me 2 short comments, although it is not linked to the video but at least that made me feel that he don't really mean to target Asians.

• your english is fine... dont worry

  FadedHolySoldier 1 hour ago
• @FadedHolySoldier Thank you so much for your comment, on behalf of those racist/nationalist Singaporeans, I'm sorry for them calling you names, because I know even though you're wrong at some parts about this whole Aaron thing, it doesn't give them the rights to judge you. I hope you understand that Singaporeans just felt offended about you saying Singapore and not about you saying Aaron. Have a nice day! :)

  MichelleAXOXO 22 minutes ago
• i do like your hair..and i like your gentle attitude

  FadedHolySoldier 1 hour ago

  
  

  
  

And this is it.

P/S: Thank you everyone who left down nice comments! I read all. ^-^

Here I am.

This topic is more HOT than Adelyn's incident. Other than Aaron, an american guy joined in the "fun" and apparently now we're not focusing on Aaron's incident but on what that american guy said that most Singaporeans feel offended. Everyone knows that Caucasians are my favorite people, and some people might be thinking why I didn't say anything about the whole Aaron incident since it's a topic hotter than my flat iron. Yes, I know everything about what happened. I watched the first video of FadedHolySoldier, then to the second (which is the most offensive one that was removed) then now to the third one. I get offended super easily but I kept quiet about his videos thinking that other Singaporeans will talk to him about it. But his third video is... making everything worse instead of covering those mess he've made.

And now, here I am. I'm talking about this.

I'm seriously very pissed that I have to make a video because blogging is not enough to get my anger out. This is not called busybody, this is called fighting for our pride. Singapore is such a small country, with just 1/4 of NigaHiga's subscribers on YouTube can already make us unbalance. If Singaporeans don't fight back and let him say whatever the hell he wants, he'll climb on top of our head. First he talked about Aaron, and then he fucked Singapore with a middle finger, now he's trying to drag our government in this whole incident? With him apologizing to us for being partially wrong for his second video which was removed from his channel, he should just apologize to all asians. And that's that.

I sincerely apologize on behalf of that minority of the Singaporeans who called you bad names. And like what Dee Kosh said, we really, thank you for reminding us that we're united. But you offended us MORE than you helped us.

P/S: We love pandas, very much.

16.12.11 15/12

Yesterday.

You know 15 is my favorite number and luckiest number. But... it was bad. So bad.

1) I want to say sorry for those who're waiting for us to go live. I promise I'll make sure it will happen first before I announcing it. If you follow the three of us, you should already know why we're not going live today. One have school tomorrow, another have too much homework, and I only had 3 hours of sleep. Shit just happened so I hope you guys understand. I deeply apologize for making you all wait till so late. I am SO sorry. After reading this paragraph, please go have some rest okay?

2) I'm not in a very good mood the whole day today. But I still can smile and laugh. XD

Too many shit happened today, but you know, nobody wants that so let's just face shits with flushes. I created this makeup look called Icy Blue and my false eyelashes today were so obedient! So I thought today's going to be a very good day. Got woken up by my aunt for yelling 3 hours after I finally got into my unicorn land, feeling so damn tired, knowing my mom and I were going out in the afternoon, I tried to sleep back but I can't fall back asleep so I started preparing.

Makeup of the day!

You can totally see how dry my face is and that freaking dot there. Oh and my eyes' vains/blood vessels. 

That shows how tired I am. And my eyes were red today evening because I was sooo tired but I can't fall asleep in public, I don't know why. Got woken up by my aunt these days so my mood and skin are both affected. 

I said I wanted to go Orchard because they have pretty Christmas lightings/decorations and I wanna share with all of you! And because I'm going today and my mom hate going there, I had to force myself awake till night so I can catch something nice for my dear readers.

Sticking to Starbucks. This, I hate O' Coffee club.

But.

Ice cream on top, cake below. Super cool!

Love this most!

Yes, I didn't go to the part near somerset so there's something missing here. I should have went there for more Christmas lightings/decorations but I was too tired to walk there. And I didn't take pictures of Christmas trees there although they're really nice. I'm really too tired. ☹

Part of why today's kinda shitty is because I feel... I don't know how to say it but I was hoping for something. Someone maybe? This is getting nowhere. LOL

Orchard MRT was closed and we tried all the taxi stand we could find there and there's no cabs. So you know, it's damn stupid. But there's this caucasian queueing for taxi, too, she asked "is there any more cabs or times up for it?" so I replied her "we're all waiting, there's still cabs outside but it's just that there's no cab turning in!" and she asked "is this normal like how you guys always wait? Because I need to get to a place by 10pm" (it's 9:36pm) my mom said "yeah, we've already waited for more than half an hour" her eyes got bigger and went like OMG REALLY? GEEZ I'M OUT OF HERE THANKS BTW. My mom and I totally laughed at that. She's so cool. LOL

Other than that.. My Jeffrey Campbell Lita arrived.

To prove that it's the real original one.

Didn't plan to write in a post mainly focusing on this because Melvin (my aunt's big son) ran to me and said him and Shawn (my aunt's younger son) was curious about what's inside so they went to open it. But thankfully they only opened the parcel/package and not touching the Lita itself. At least Melvin is honest, right? :S

THE BEST THING IS... I FINALLY GOT THAT CHANEL SHADES I'VE BEEN WANTING FOR SO FKN LONG.

Forgive me for last minute not going live okay?

Goodnight! Keep smiling. xo