30.11.11 Flyyyyy.

My classmates and I actually planned to fly to Korea and Japan at the end of this year before we finish our N levels. Korea because we all know korean pop. Japan because I want to see beautiful sceneries and do girls shopping. But failed to go because they say that they didn't want to go or can't go anymore. Which is pure stupidity. I was so excited about going overseas throughout the whole of September to November. And now what? Everything was cancelled. Other classmate ask when will we be flying, all I could say is those fkn retards aren't interested in going anymore. Might be because they didn't want to go with me.

This friend, we planned to fly during my September 3 days holiday but he ask me to stay at home to study for N levels. But way before knowing that my N levels crash into the supposedly 1 week September holiday, we planned to fly. Just fly to anywhere cheap but not near. Then once he said we one girl one boy very... so I'm like we're just going there to enjoy the holidays, just as friends. And of course I only choose to go with people whom I trust. Ask a random handsome/hot/cute american guy to invite me to go overseas with him. Do you think I'll agree? Of course not! I don't know him so why should I trust him.

2 paragraphs of failed plans! How embarrassing.

I've always wanted to get on first class airplane. I never even get close to an airplane before. Never once in my life. Double wtf. But so I wish that my first airplane that I'll get close and step into is going to be the first class airplane. Which will not happen because it's so expensive that I don't even dare to think of the minimum price.

It won't happen so soon but least it will, someday. Even if my first experience on a plane is not on this first class airplane, I believe this day (of stepping into this plane) will come someday. And I remember I once had a small chat with my social studies teacher in the dm office and I told him I'm afraid of planes because there's too many news of them crashing. So that's why I only went to Genting Highlands and Malaysia before. Those 2 places that I hope I won't step into again. I hate GH. Because it's boring, stupid and scary. What's worse, there's nothing there that interest me.

Main countries I want to visit:
USA - duh.
London - because it's cool.
Australia - nearest and because America is too expensive for me to afford.
Paris - beautiful.

GOOD NEWS.
I'll be flying to Korea with you know who 5 years later. I'll just have to come back to this post 5 years later and re-read that sentence again.
I think that will happen. 5 years from now. People say it's too early to plan but there's no such thing as too early, ok.

Remember how I failed when I'm on ustream a month ago? I might be going live (trying again) this saturday midnight. Since there's no school and people hardly go out on Sundays. Also, it'll be Saturday in the western country. Reason why I don't want to choose it on Sunday is because everyone is at home so my house will be very noisy. But we'll see how it goes. & I've added ustream to my fanpage!

Keep smiling! New post tomorrow. xoxo

27.11.11 The muppets

(picture taken at cineleisure, the muppets poster)

Won a pair of tickets to THE MUPPETS.

Got Gary Ringo to go with me! Tried to make it less awkward but still, first meetings are always a little awkward, actually because we didn't really talk much before. The next time we meet, I promise it won't be awkward anymore. Also because I'm too tired today! I don't know why but the people I recently met (on the internet) seems to be so good at drawing. Maybe I should get back to drawing! And thanks Jouri, I was told that he linked here from your blog. HAHAHA. Also thank you to the 2 pretty girls who chose me as one of the winners!

Wrong choice to seat so straight acting so lady-like, making me look so awk. (I DID WEAR TIGHT SHORTS INSIDE STOP LOOKING)

HIM TRYING TO SEDUCE MY READERS.

He's lucky that he's an iPhone user too otherwise I'm going to get his number using the excuse that we're meeting so it's easier to contact through phone. >:) Eh just kidding. Not trying to sound bitchy/flirty/whatever kay! We are the examples of meeting without getting each other's cellphone number. Now those nerdy pedophiles out there, it's time to change a new way to get girl's number.

The part where I love most about THE MUPPETS is where the adults act. I know the focus is on the muppets but I love the adults more! After watching this and getting to know more about the muppets, I think I love Animal most but of course I still love Miss Piggy's bling bling and her classiness. The chickens are hell cute. I would pay for their concert. Like seriously I will.

Don't wanna talk too much about it since it'll be officially out on the 8th of December! Go catch it yourself. XD

P/S: Hi Gary, I'm really glad you enjoyed the movie more than I did. See you next time soon!

You guys are really lucky to see me smile while using my dslr to take pictures again.

Ending with some iPhone pictures!

My teeth are forever not clean no matter how many times I clean it a day wtfwtfwtf.
But fku, my teeth keeps me going, it has been there for me and all that shit, so shut up about it.
No, I shut up.

Happy also cannot? Okayyyy. ☹ I close my mouth.

Keep smiling!

xoxo

COOL FRIENDS LIKE JOURI AND GARY AND MY FRIENDLY READERS.

MY LIFE IS COMPLETE. *SCREAM AND JUMP AROUND*

(that was literally what I did for the past few hours, now believe me that I am happy)

26.11.11 Makeover

It's not my makeover! It's me helping Cass to makeover for her date.

I should wake at around 9 in the morning but I went to bed only after talking to Jouri which is already 5 in the morning. And I have this habit of going to twitter, tumblr and everywhere from my phone before I really close my eyes to sleep. Which means I slept at around 6am. Sacrificing my beauty sleep to talk to that guy who always hit the floor. (inside joke)

Woke at around 10 going to 11 when I should reach Cass' house at 11:30am. And she stressed that I cannot be late the day before otp. So I went to take a shower and rushed out the house like a moron with last minute packing of the makeup stuffs. & this is what I brought there!

You can get this blue makeup travel bag from MakeUpStore.

Everything is inside but the only thing, and the most important thing that's not in it was the eyelash glue. Not that I forget! It's that I can't find. I think I am so cool, because despite being almost late, while I walk on the path towards the traffic light, I turned and I somehow feel that these houses are worth to be in my camera, I have that creepy feeling when I see it though. But since I think it's worth to be in my camera.. I stood under the hot sun without even thinking how hot and bright the sun is, I slowly put my phone and ezlink card inside my handbag, pull out my camera and SNAP.

So much for you guys. XD

Reached Cass' house, after some talking and laughing, feeling so hungry and tired... we ordered McD!

Will you just look at it? Yummmmmmmmz.

Cass suggest that we set alarm at 1:45pm so once the alarm ring, we'll stop everything we're doing and get started with the makeover. Then I'm like so once the alarm ring, we'll throw the food onto the table, sudden stop of talking and laughters and get started with the makeover. Thought that was funny. o_o 

Done with the makeup and I personally think that it's quite nice, thinking that it's my first time putting on makeup on people's face.

We don't have time to wait for the eyelash glue to dry to take a picture so.. yeah. And I finally understand when people say different eyes work differently. Her eyes are naturally big and wide towards the side while mine is small but round. So being used to making my eye big and round, this make up made her eyes big and round with a little bit of longness towards the side which is what she is looking for. I think it's super suitable for clubbing. If you want a pair of super long eyes, you could draw the bottom eyeliner all the way to your inner corner which is what I always do for my eyes. I'm glad that she's fine with any type of makeup because some people always complain that my makeup is too thick. But you better shut up about how thick my makeup is because nothing's gonna change the way I makeup.

I went to meet my mom after that. Then we went to eat. Desert. So I'm not going to include this under all about food posts. XD

The mangos are very sour. But other than that, others taste alright. The best will be the one infront of the fork. I'm not very sure what is it called but it taste wonderful with the coconut cream on top!

I was so tired and sleepy and weak yesterday that I slept at around 6pm. Feeling so sick these days. x_x

If you haven't notice, I added a new page on top called TTM. Click on it to find out what is it about. ^^

Oh and what's a post without me? (bad hair and makeup day)

This was taken by my mom, she was just spam clicking the dslr and this is actually a candid shot but I think this is the nicest so... there it is. XD

Keep smiling okay! Byebyeeeeeee.

24.11.11 Loved

  WHOEVER WHO SAW THIS POST SHOULD READ THIS.  

  EVEN IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME, JUST READ.  

Many things are running around in my mind so I decided to blog. I may know some of the people who will visit my blog, but who will actually read the whole post? I don't know. I don't know where my other readers are from. I don't know how they are like. But for some reason, I care for each and everyone of you.

I want to reach out to people who needs advice or encouragement. Even if this post helped only one person, I'm happy. People must understand that there's no need to envy people with love, family, career, money, education, talents and shit, because they must know that, even though those people they envy have all those things but if they're not happy, what's the point? Perfect life doesn't mean happy life. Everyone of us had this very moment where we think it's the end, where we think everything sucks, where we think everyone hate us. That's because we chose to believe that it is really that bad when it's actually not.

The famous inspiring quote saying smile because you can, smile when you still have teeth is bullshit. Because that means that if I lost the ability to move my mouth = I can't smile and when I get old and all my teeth dropped, all my teeth are decayed and disgusting. Does that mean that I have to stop smiling? I can't feel happy anymore? Do people even think about those people who can't smile even if they tried? Smile only because you want to, don't smile just because you can. I'm talking about smiling in your heart. Everyone can do that.

The most common problem I see people having is about relationships. There's no such bullshit as "more than friends but less than lovers" because if you are stuck there, it means that it's best to stay as just friends. Even if the reason why you are stuck is the reason no one can do anything about it, if it's meant to be, it is meant to be. If someone dump you, ask them why and work on that reason but meanwhile, you have to get the fuck over that relationship because it is not coming back. Time doesn't stop for anyone. Life goes on, shit happens all the time. See things a positive way, and then you'll be contented with what you currently have.

Just ask yourself why.

Do you know why? If you don't, read on. I asked myself a lot whys and now I'll list out some:

Why am I the most useless one?
Why is my teeth so different from others?
Why do I always cry over the smallest thing like when people ignore me?
Why am I even brought to this world?
Why?

All sums up to one answer no matter what your whys are, because you are here for a good reason.
Hear about my story and understand.

When I'm born, my dad and his parents don't even want to have a glance at me because I'm a girl, I don't have a dick. The whole family I'm living with, only my mom and uncle love me. My toys are bought by the both of them and of course my mom's parents who would catch bullet for me. None of it was from my dad. 

I became a toddler, I am weak, I get sick too easily, I was rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night almost at least once a week. My dad said I'm made of paper, he say I am useless. But he didn't know how it feels, as a small kid, fighting with so many needles that got poked into my skin every time I enter the hospital. I cry everyday when I go to school during kindergarden because I can't see my mom, I don't feel secure, I don't have friends, I remembered how I cry and pulled my mom when my kindergarden teacher carried me so I can get in the class. I meet new people, they are the BEST people I've met in life.

Elementary (primary 1), I have a clique where we talk about everything. I once fell down in the sand during recess, the "leader" of the clique gave me support to get up, keep on asking me if I'm alright. Ashley, Shi Hui, Wei Xiong and Qi Fang is the new kid who joined us. I don't know where they are but I want to know how they're doing. We lost contact because I left Ang Mo Kio Primary School. When they heard me saying I'm leaving, they thought I'm joking so they asked my mom after we end school, my mom replied "yes we're leaving ☹" they cried. We all cried. So badly I can't even forget. Those are my real friends. The only real friends.

2nd grade - sixth grade in Bedok Green Primary School, I have no friends. I cried on my first day of school. My adult teeth starts to grow out before my baby teeth starts shaking, that explains my crooked teeth, and that's when my life became like a road of complete hell. Got teased for my name and my teeth. Got bullied physically. She say nasty things to me right in my face saying I only know how to cry, saying about my teeth. My first "boyfriend" played me. He knew I have feelings for him, he said we could try but I'm not allowed to tell anyone, we texted and soon after, he told his aunt that I harass him. His aunt told my mom's friends whose sons are in EM1. You thought I already forgot what happened, didn't you, Jun Kai? I don't want to go school. I had suicidal thoughts. I don't want to tell my mom. I suffered through.

I'm finally out of there, I got into high school. Problems came. People coming against me saying they want to slap me and all the "gangsters" stuff. More bullies. I don't want to study. I don't want to go out because I'm scared. I skipped a lot of lessons because of that shit. I tried to become one of those losers (female gangsters) so I will be respected, that is how Singapore is like in those days, if you're not fierce, people will beat you. You can say you're a gangster in a playing manner, just please don't really become one. It wouldn't benefit anyone. Really.

9th grade, I start to realize how beautiful the world can be. 10th grade, I pin my heart down to help as many people as I can.

Till now, I believe I'm born to help people with low self-esteem. I want to help because I understand. I can put myself in your shoes to understand how you feel. So just remember that I will be here for you when nobody else will listen. You are loved, at least by me.

I don't care how your past is like, how your family background is, or how rich you are, I want YOU to be happy.

Always here,
MAKJPersonal@live.com
http://facebook.com/MichelleAndrewNicole

Oh by the way my family is all good now. ^^
Everything will eventually gets better. That's what I believe. Everyone should too.

Read and spread. Encourage people to keep going.

23.11.11 Forever21

I'm getting more sick so I'll go to bed once I finish this post.

If you followed me on twitter, you'll know that I ordered things from f21 some time back. ^ ⊽ ^

Kinda surprise that it took only 2 weeks to reach me, although it feels long but after it reach me I'm so happy and satisfied!

I was so shocked when I see the package at first. Not because of the FRAGILE but because I don't like FedEx and because...

So I was thinking a pair of socks in such big box? and I opened it up and saw this actual order list from forever21 of 9 items which is the right list of everything. Was sooooo relieved. Because if they only send me a pair stupid ass socks in such a big box then I have contact forever 21 and all. Troublesome. ☹

What's a list of items without pictures of the items right?! XD

FAVORITE:

It's so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee and the material is super good!

I'm transferring the sheep from my camera to the computer I realized the sheep is like telling me bitch I'm flawless and I'm just like me too. Just look at the cool sheep and the cute panda socks and other cool stuffs I got! And all these cost me less than USD100! If I'm living in the US, I could have gotten all these for less than SGD80! Shipping fee is USD38. But knowing that they have to spend their time packing it nicely, sending it for shipment and all, I think $38 is worth because they could have make it more expensive. And trust me, buying online, despite the shipping fee, you save about SGD20. Which means if you buy it from our local forever21 in town, you'll spend more. 

So where ever you are, try buying things online instead! Save transportation fee, save time, save strength to carry bags of new stuffs also save makeup so you can use makeup doing more cooler things like hanging out with friends and spamming pictures. Right?! Even if you don't makeup when you go out, you save water because more clothes more water. That's why. 

Money + patience = things in perfect condition to your doorstep. Ok that's all bye! Follow my blog please?

P/S: I might give away one of the cross necklace. *^-^*

Nothing special.

As promised in my previous post, a midnight post for everyone who visits my blog! ^₋^

Went to town with only SGD10 to accompany Cass for 3 hours which is obviously not even enough for one hour's meal. I finally get to drink that Chocolate Frappuccino I've been craving for weeks. Beverages made by that cool kid working in Starbucks always taste better than other Starbucks'.

I planned to spend that $10 on my drink only. But we end up ordering something to share because I'm left with that pathetic $4 and we're both hungry after looking at those cakes and stuff. I wanted to buy that $1 banana that was left with only 1 in the basket but I don't have extra money! And remember, never go town with less than $20 for food. And do you know that bananas have a lot vitamins than apples and oranges? That's why I love to eat bananas. Banana slices with chocolate syrup is like HEAVEN. And speaking of heaven, I used to spell "haven't" as "heaven". I have no idea how stupid I used to be when I'm young. K back to food.

So we ordered Starbucks Spinach and Mushroom Quiche. Don't look very flattering in pictures but it taste quite good! Healthy too. Because it's spinach and mushroom? Yep that is why I think it's healthy. After that, we went to the restroom to pee but I...

I swear I feel so insecure without any stockings/leggings/anything wrapped around my legs. And that colorful hoodie I'm wearing is making my body looks so huge. Which is weird when I take full body shots because small head + big body ≠ skeleton legs. But I love this hoodie because it's so colorrrrrrful like rainbowwwww! And I bought the only piece. XD

Ending with the tired me with smudged makeup! As I said in my previous post, my false eyelashes fell out when I reach the subway, so I remove the one left and survived with these pair of no false eyelashes but with makeup for false eyelashes eyes throughout the night. It's an achievement. *claps to self*

So this is the end of this post. Did you enjoy reading it? I really hope so. ^⋎^

Keep smiling!

xoxo

22.11.11 Pissed

Hi everyone. I'm standing in the train to town now.

Does this ever happen to you?

When you get so frustrated about everything and you just wanna shout "STFU" to everyone whom you think they pissed you off. Like earlier on at home, my email is failing me, it wouldn't let me send out mails. Then my internet starts getting slower and slower and finally I lost connection. And idiots from below my apartment is screaming and shouting. And there's this damn drum sound (sounds like the bass beat of something) coming out from nowhere. And I'm sneezing the shit out of myself which lowered down my temper when I already have very short temper.

If I don't rant here, I don't think anyone would want to listen to such useless rant personally. Also, if I don't rant, I'll be sent to mental hospital by tonight for sure because I'll go around asking people to fuck themselves. So far my day today has been like shit. My eye make up wasn't very good, I don't feel right without my stockings wrapping around my legs. My false eyelashes fell out. Unlucky sick day but I'll try to post up a post this midnight when I get home. ^^

21.11.11 Studies?

Before I start this serious post...

Okay so who wants my vulgarious post? I actually try not to have any vulgarities in it but what's a vulgarious post without vulgarities? I sound like I'm a bad kid trying to be a gangsta. Lol no, that's the only way to describe how I'm feeling! Oh and you know I got this habit.. Clicking on "new post", start typing, do other things and then click on "new post" again to start another totally different topic post. I took some random pictures but I don't know how to fit those pictures in my post. So here it is.

And most of the pictures which I don't know how to fit in my posts because they don't really make any sense together with the post. But the pictures alone is photography. So I left those pictures in my computer until I take new ones and they got pushed away, then I left them in my computer and until I take new ones again. And the more I look at my face thinking whether if I should post, first reaction straight after I took that picture "OMG I LOOK SO COOL HERE" so I kept it. But when I start to stare at it, from omg so cool become wtf is wrong with my face. So I didn't post it up. But here's one before I start this post.

Missed my bangs anyone? My eyes are getting bigger, love it!

Before I start talking about myself again, I want to talk about studies. Because I took my N level national examinations this year so it's either I risk to 5th grade and take another final national examinations (O level) before I get out of high school education or I squeeze myself into higher nitec in ITE (Institute of Technical Education) which I think the name makes no sense. Or I stay another year to do well for my N levels which I planned to if I could have another year of chance. I honestly, truly, really, don't want to end up in ITE. Nothing against ITE but I just don't want to be in there. Wanting to only go Polytechnic to finish the course I take and then get into University. I swear I'll squeeze my way into University no matter how much money I'm going to spend, how many branded bags I have to burn, how many years of black hair I have to be stucked with. I want to get into University. People think I can't go that far because of my current standards in school but I will prove them wrong. I mean even if I can't get into University or even Polytechnic after squeezing out my brain juice and putting my whole heart into studies, I will succeed in life.

Most people have that stupid mindset of if you don't have education, a certificate at least, don't you even dare think about getting far in life. It's not about studies, education shit. I say it's about talent. But if you don't have a talent then you better study. I'm starting to lost track of what I'm saying here. My grandma and aunt are being too noisy early in the morning zzz. There's a very high chance of me getting into ITE because I know I didn't do well in this year's N level. But okay, if I'm really ending up in there without having a chance to get into higher nitec, I'll stick to whatever course that is related to business/office. My dad, aunt, uncle and grandparents discussed about what course should I take, and they chose facial and hair because all they was thinking was after the course, I can be a lady boss of my own shop. But I don't like learning facial or hair. I'm more not interested in what they will bring me in the future after getting a facial or hair certificate. My dad told me that because I'm interested in makeup and hair dyeing stuffs so why not choose either one of them, and he said that after I'm done learning, he'll fork out money (with family's help) to open a shop and let me become the lady boss. Or even if I'm an employee, I can earn a good amount of pay.

Now, I love makeup doesn't mean I like to be taught about makeup. Makeup courses in my mind is just like a useless piece of shit. I can learn makeup myself from everywhere around the world, why am I wasting my time and money on useless stuffs? Maybe yes, just for the cert but what they teach in makeup courses is just.. no. I like to learn things myself. So since I must go through this process of being taught by professionals/teachers, I choose to learn challenging shits even if I'm going to fail. At least I went with what I chose and I tried. And for hair, that's a major no, think about when I work for people, the job will ruin my hands. What's more, my hands are very sensitive, I can't even wear rings when I love them. Although they didn't disagree about me choosing office but I know they think that office girls with normal rank can't earn much which I obviously know. But I don't know, I think things about office is the most useful and classy course that they have to me. I can't do technical electric things, I don't want to be a chef, I don't want to be a hairdresser, I don't want to be a makeup artist, I don't think it's hard to find courses for those outside so if I suddenly want to learn about them, I can sign up for courses outside. But for office/business/law, I wouldn't go sign up for such hard courses for nothing. LOL

And if I get into Polytechnic, I'll get law and managements. XD If I can. That's what I really want actually.

Saying so much, I have plans for my future. I don't a goal because I'm not a hockey player. But I have plans and wants. And I know that we got to work for what we want because it won't come to us magically by itself. I know. I know. I know. I know. Okay bye. Keep smiling! xo